So I've been dating this boy for one month now, today actually, though I'm not really the type to keep track and celebrate that kind of thing. I like him. After our first weekend together we said we wouldn't date anyone else, which is essentially a bf/gf relationship. But I'm still scared to call him my b*******d. I've tried throwing the word around, and I like the idea of shouting it out from the rooftops in the abstract (i.e. facebook, where all those ex-hookups can see and hopefully be jealous), but the idea of introducing him to strangers as my boyfriend freaks me out. I mean, I guess I'm comfortable having close friends know, but I think what I must be scared of is how I judge couples. I always evaluate to see if they are a good match, if one of them seems to be dating down or up, what they see in each other. I also look at how confident a couple seems with each other, which can influence my judgment, making me care less or care more about a quality that, unmediated, would have a very clear reaction in me.
Anyway, I think I'm almost ready. Soon, soon.
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I've never called any of my boyfriends "boyfriends", actually. They weren't long relationships, but they were exclusive ones for a couple of months and I still never used that word. It freaks me out, too! I feel like as soon as I say the word, people will keep tabs on the relationship and when we break up and I'd rather it not be a big deal, it's automatically a big deal because that person was my "boyfriend".
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